Hey Everybody My Name is Payden Saxton, and welcome to my story!
First things first, my purpose for this blog and telling my story is not to boast or gain pity for myself. My sole purpose for this is to lead the way in inspiring those in the world who find themselves suffering or going through hard times and just need a pick me up. I will be the first to tell you that Im not some life coach or self-help guru thats going to tell you what to do, or how to do it, unless you ask! However, I am someone who has had a lot of life experiences. I have suffered a lot of trials, overcame many addictions, and survived against all odds. To say the least, I consider myself to have gained a lot of wisdom in life. For the past 5 years I have been prompted and inspired many times to share my story and the knowledge I have gained in life, but due to my own struggles and many vices in life I just didn't respond to the promptings. However, thats the past and all that matters now is that I'm here and ready to kill it, with the hopes and dreams that I can unite and inspire all who find themselves in what is considered to be a losing situation. This is for anyone who is struggling and suffering from the feelings of being alone, for those who feel beaten down, lost, afraid, struggling with addiction, suffering from depression, or find themselves fighting the fight that life has thrown their way. We are not here to be alone, life is to be lived United, we are here to share our experiences and help all who stand in need. We all need a friend or someone to listen. We all need to tell our story and rise above the weaknesses that stand in our way. Please join me on this journey and stop living and suffering in silence, its time to live up to your full potential and make a difference in the lives of others! If you except this challenge, welcome to the ACINOM family. Where Unity&Experience are our mission, we are set on a journey to dream big and live even bigger, to help dreams come true, while saving lives and providing the love and support that we all need as we go through life as brothers and sisters! No one deserve to suffer alone!
Where It all Began
When I was 8 years old I was diagnosed with a rare hip disease that caused my joints to deteriorate. From so much pain and long suffering it only took until I was 21 for me to undergo a double hip replacement operation. After receiving the surgery I recovered in record time and was back to work in 2 weeks. I wish I would have known prior to the surgery that the hard part was going to be coming off the pain meds. Knowing that, at least I could have made a plan or made sure someone could assist me in my pain tolerance. I had overcome addiction in my life many times before this incident, however, smoking meth. and snorting cocaine wasn't an easy thing to justify, so it was a lot easy to break the addiction. Where as to taking pain pills, it was easy to say, "oh I'm in pain and I just had my hips operated on so I need them". On top of that they were given to me by a doctor and doctors know everything thats right for us right? Not! Don't take me wrong, I'm not saying that it was the doctors fault that I was addicted, nor am I saying its there fault that anyone is addicted. What I'm saying is, that its a lot easier for us as humans to take poisons into our bodies when it comes from a doctor. Why is this, I have no idea. After many nights of not knowing if I was ever going to wake up, I decided to take matters into my own hands. It was a 4 year addiction that led to many other addictions, one of those being Adderall. I went to the doctor and said that I was having a hard time staying awake and focusing, and I needed something to help. It just so happened that my "help" came in the form of 60 little pink pills. I was on so much crap I completely forgot who I was. At this point Im still finding myself, however, I can tell you that I am coming back stronger than ever, and going on 3 months of being clean from everything other than Caffeine. I have had the dream of starting my own blog for over 4 years now. It's finally here and the procrastination is over. I figured that since it took me over four years to loose myself to find myself, that it was going to take some time for me to really get myself back. The good news is, I am no longer focusing on helping myself. I feel that was one of the things I needed to learn, stop focusing on myself and finally start help others. Helping ourselves is a great and wonderful thing, however, it should be done in the form of self-improvement, not by expecting or thinking you deserve self pity from others. It starts and ends with you, and at that point, when we can truly accept and understand that its up to us, that no matter what happens, as long as we can find where it is that we messed up, we will start to experience the change in our lives that we are searching for. Stay strong and be persistent, I am here to help. Please contact me with any questions. I have a wonderful lifestyle and exercise plan, along with a great list of supplements to help you become and stay clean for the rest of you life. Join me as I join you, and lets help put a stop to the prescription drug epidemic that is going on throughout the world. Thank you so much for reading. Prepare for a lot more.